So I'm aware that it is a little early for swimsuit shopping, but ya gotta look at something when you're bored at work right? I've recently become quite the fan of modern damask. If you're a fan as well, check out this cute line of Tommy Bahama damask swimwear! I found it on zappos.com
I started this blog about 2 years ago but I decided to keep it private at the time. Why? Well, I really just needed a place to vent, and let out my frustrations..... So that's what I did. I cried and yelled, laughed and smiled through various posts. Was that healthy or good for me? I don't know. At the time, probably. But as I would go back and read I realized that it brought back feelings and memories that were better off left in the past. Not the happy ones of course, but the other ones.... yes. So I've decided to take this blog in a different direction. I've taken it off private and I will do my best to write in it on a more regular basis - but I can't make any promises about that. haha (And in case you're looking for my rants and tirades... I've removed them.)
Ok - moving on to who I am. I'm a 24 year old single girl, living in the interesting city of Memphis, TN. Born and raised in South Alabama I am a southern girl through and through. I come from a big, wonderful, happy, loving family. I am the 3rd of six children (2 boys - 4 girls). I am an aunt to the most adorable little boy in the world - Noah. I am a child of God and a follower of Christ. I have a wonderful boyfriend. We've been together 5 months, so it's still kinda new. But I'm anxious to see where these first 5 months will lead.
I've never really been a blogger per-say, so we will see how this actually pans out. I have no rhyme or reason as to which direction this blog will go, I'll just write as the mood strikes and we shall see what I come up with!
Here we go!
I've always said "I hate valentines. It's so stupid." My reasoning behind this has always been that Vday is so commercialized, and if someone is going to tell me they love me why should they have to wait to do so on the one day of the year that someone is telling them to say it? Why can't they do something sweet and romantic another day of the year - it would mean a lot more then, right? But as this day draws near again I realize the real root of why I hate valentines so much. Besides the fact that I'm not a fan of teddy bears (or any stuffed animal for that matter), red roses, or hearts - I hate Valentines because it's always a let down. When I'm single I think "oh, maybe my mom or good guy friend will call and want to do something special today." And when I'm in a relationship I begin thinking of things to do for that person weeks in advance. Like today, for instance, I was reading things like: "Simple ways to make Valentines sweet and romantic at home." or "Creative way to tell that special someone just how much you care." But as I read these things I realize I'm doing it again. I'm setting myself up for disappointment. I start to think "oh maybe he will think of these things" .... but in the end I know it won't be that way. Partly it's my fault for ever telling him that I think Valentines is ridiculous - I know that. Maybe I am a romantic despite me always believing and saying I'm not.
I'm not writing this as a secret or hinting way of letting someone know what I want for Valentines, I'm merely writing it because I've finally realized why I've always hated it. The let down. I guess it's time to suck it up, put my big girl panties on, and realize that my romantic day that I dream in my head may never come true. And ultimately I think I'm okay with that. maybe. :)
